Ferryman

Give me a coin for the ferryman,

leave it between my lips

so I can not misplace it.

Wandering would be the fate

of my soul without your

final

sweet gesture.

Leave now 

do not watch as

the fire consumes me.

I wish you celebrate 

alongside the living.

Revel in our time together,

it was a glorious adventure.

I yearn for one last 

communion with my family

to settle the debts.

Even in death

I long for reconciliation.

Adorn the walls with black

lace and dark streamers.

Hang every picture

invoking good memories

to lighten this void.

Set aside a black cake

sprinkled with salt,

once red wine 

has stated all sadness

cut open its caramel heart.

Leave together, filled with hope.

let the sadness slip 

but don't let go 

for pain keeps us human

and I fear

 I will be forgotten.

If I love you

I might haunt you

because in life I know

I was a selfish woman

centered in solitude,

demanding patience.

In death I know 

I will be a selfish woman

robed in longing,

Ruing the veil.

Wailing your name.

Send me with a coin for Charon.

Set it in between my lips

so that I may see hell

where my soul can rest,

until it's your turn 

to meet 

the ferryman.